For the first time since my mother passed last Tuesday, I feel to the center part of my being that she is both with me and in a better place. I no longer worry that she’s lost and afraid. I know she is grounded in a Holy Wisdom that letsRead More

Each day I wake at about 5:30 a.m.–well before the alarm. It’s the time I plugged into the video cam on Tuesday when I saw my mom struggling at the University Hospital. Her nurse Scott was trying to assist her. She looked at me, so scared. I am sitting inRead More

This is my mom, as snazzy as can be. That is her dog, Bonnie, in the foreground, and that is her Pop-pop, my grandfather to the left. I never met him. He passed the year before I was born. Just last Tuesday, I brought my mom a slice, and weRead More

I am sitting at the hospital. I cannot seem to leave. This board, with my mother’s name, will soon be erased. The date is not right, but no need to update it this morning. In the middle of the night, my mother started gasping for breath. They gave her someRead More

I am sitting with my mom on video chat. I did not take a picture of her–that would not be fair. She told the family frequently she always took pride in her hair, and the lack of access to a stylist has gotten to her. She is watching the news.Read More

I woke this morning thinking of my mother. I do most mornings. Sitting in that hospital room, alone. She’s scared and alone. I get that. If I had cancer on a breathing machine, I’d want someone there too. Today they would not let me in. My brother did not getRead More

Update on my mom: Without too many details, the cocktail of meds they have given my mom has given her more energy and allowed us an additional day. She still has terminal cancer, and there is a lot of damage to her lungs, but the prognosis today was far betterRead More

I am sitting in my mother’s hospital room. We have been one of the first families allowed to visit their dying family members in this COVID world. I am blessed to be here. My mom is resting. I hope comfortably. The staff in ICU is responsive to her needs. ThereRead More